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(no subject) [Jan. 2nd, 2006♥09:46 pm]
Stephy
[Feelin' |pensivepensive]

Why do I say it's alright every time some stranger is being a pain in my ass in public even when sometimes it's really not?

Why do we wait 50 years until someone is two breaths from death to tell them that we love them?

Why do I pretend everything is fine and not say what I really feel? Why does pride seem to matter so much when all it ever does is get in the way?
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(no subject) [Oct. 30th, 2005♥07:20 pm]
Stephy
[Feelin' |contemplativecontemplative]

Had the bad luck to stumble onto a couple of commercials for kids tonight. I don't watch much TV and especially not during the day.

Jesus they're pretentious.

I mean, commercials were kinda like this when I was a kid, too. That's the point of a commercial. To get in your face and make you want to buy the thing. But I just remember them being less... manipulative. These were like, not even appealing to the quality of the product or how much fun you could have with it, but how cool you would look if you got it.

I hope kids still remember the box is sometimes more fun to play with than the crap inside.
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(no subject) [Oct. 16th, 2005♥11:44 pm]
Stephy
[Feelin' |nervousnervous]
[Listening To... |Hall & Oates - Rich Girl]

New job starting tomorrow... Hope things work out.

On a more positive note, though, I've been seriously looking into my options for going back to University. I could get an undergrad BA with a major in Psych in three or four years through distance ed so I could work on it on weekends, in the evenings and whatnot while I'm working. The prices are actually less than I was expecting. So I think I might actually have a good chance at it. :) I hope the academic advisor I contacted will be able to help me... still a little confused about some things.

I think it'll probably work out better that way than trying to go full time while still keeping a part-time job. I was working my way through college in Quebec with a part-time job at night and it was hell. I can do it, I'd just rather not if there's a more viable option available.

I probably should be going to bed but I don't start until ten tomorrow morning and I miss Dan, so hopefully I'll get to spend a bit of time with him tonight before I have to hit the hay.

I don't know why I'm so nervous about this job. I think it's mainly the vibes the HR guy gave off in the interview. He went through my resume with a fine-toothed comb and grilled me for nearly an hour. I felt like a criminal. Heh. But hopefully the ladies I'll be working with are a little less... anal. :)
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(no subject) [Oct. 15th, 2005♥09:48 am]
Stephy
[Feelin' |blankblank]

Average
Your life has been 38% difficult.

Based on your family, money, political context, and personal situation
-- during the important years of your development -- it appears your
life was AVERAGE. What does this mean?



Well, the "difficulty" of your life is a measure of how rough you had
it. Relative to the world, you had a pretty normal childhood. You
probably had a typical mixture of advantages and disadvantages. At one
time the disadvantanges might've even seemed impossible to overcome.
But look at you now!



I'm not sure what "success" means to you, but whatever it is, you can achieve it. When you do, it'll be very impressive.





I have a new test! Straight males and gay/bi females, check out my brand new How Low Are Your Sex Standards Test



My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 70% on difficult
Link: The How Difficult Is Your Life Test written by chicken_pot_pie on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test


Starting a new job Monday... wish me luck.
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(no subject) [Sep. 29th, 2005♥10:46 pm]
Stephy
[Feelin' |highhigh]
[Listening To... |Bob Dylan (Reservoir Dogs) - Stuck In The Middle With You]

Ah, this is a good movie.

I wish you could set the font of your LJ. Can you?

Michael Madsen reminds me of Elvis for some reason.

I feel gooood even though my throat is incredibly sore.

^_^
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(no subject) [Sep. 20th, 2005♥01:25 pm]
Stephy
[Feelin' |"nic"-ing]
[Listening To... |Paul Oakenfold - Southern Sun]

Quite unhappy with the rating system at Kasamba... I appreciate that it's a trust-driven system, but it's massively one-sided. Customers have the ability to rate you however they want and say whatever they want about you and you have no opportunity to rate them in return, or even to respond to their comments. Even e-Bay lets sellers do that.

I'm bitter about a bad rating I got from a client... A psychotic bitch, essentially. I discovered that she's rated all kinds of other people just as badly as me. I don't think I've seen her make a positive comment about -anyone-. I just don't get it. If everyone pisses you off so much, why do you go back? I think she just enjoys causing people mental stress.

I know I held up my end of the bargain. I told her what was there, I didn't add in anything of my own and I certainly never even approached insulting territory. I handled her with kid gloves, but she's such a volatile, immature person that one wrong word can set her off. Essentially, she had a headfull of wonderful, flattering things that she wanted to hear about herself, and when I didn't deliver, it wounded her fragile perception of herself. I'm trying to get Kasamba to annul the transaction and give her her money back so I can be rid of her, but I haven't heard anything back yet, and I don't think they're going to do anything about it, which is a pisser, because I was having a lot of fun doing until this bitch stepped in and almost ruined it. Ugh.

Got an interview Thursday, the position sounds interesting. Document Control Administrator, working within ISO 9000:2000 guidelines. I'm familiar with the standard; one of the old places I worked at was trying to get their quality manual written, and I helped develop some of the processes and write it. I researched the standard and its' requirements extensively and I know what I'm talking about, so I'm prepared to go in there and knock them dead. :) Also, a GRP rep phoned today and might have a data entry contract for a couple of months in Cambridge, provided it's accessible by bus. Even though Dan is going to be working from home pretty much all the time from now on, I don't know where he'll end up later or if he'll even be able to drive me in all the time, so I have to make sure I can still get there by bus when I need to. I had an appointment to go and sign up with Office Team, too, but I cancelled that one. Now that GRP is actually looking to find me assignments and I'm scoring interviews on my own, I don't want to have to deal with two agencies trying to send me to different places at one, because I'll inevitably be unavailable to one or both of them most of the time.

Trying to get my ratings back up at Kasamba, and I'm doing detailed, comprehensive Tarot readings for a dollar. Considering the work I put into it, it's actually quite a steal. :) So if you believe in that sort of thing, or you're curious, I'd be happy to read your cards for you. ^_^
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(no subject) [Sep. 12th, 2005♥04:48 pm]
Stephy
Doing Tarot card readings online at Kasamba. I'm having fun and people seem to be satisfied with their results. :)

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< /shameless plug> Heh.
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(no subject) [Sep. 4th, 2005♥10:57 am]
Stephy
[Feelin' |touchedtouched]

So a couple of Jehovah's Witnesses came to the door this morning, just as I was getting ready to put Darcy out. I could hardly keep from laughing at first, when I saw the guy pull out his bible and I was tempted for a moment to just say I wasn't interested, or worse, make trouble so that they wouldn't want to hang around. When I'm in the mood, I can send men of cloth running for the hills. Heh.

But then he started talking about why they were doing it. Apparently the New Orleans floods had prompted them. Essentially, they were going around trying to say to people, "Look, we know things have been getting pretty bad lately. Under conditions like this, it can be very easy to just give up and lose hope. But we're here to tell you that God is still watching out for you." It didn't seem like such a bad thing to be doing, so my heart softened and I let them stay and talked with them for a while. They were trying to make a difference in the only way they could, spiritually. Usually I probably would've hustled them off the porch. As politely as possible, but I wouldn't have bothered to listen to the whole story. This morning, though, I felt sympathetic, even though I'm not really a religious person. It just struck me as I stood there that they didn't want my money, didn't even really want to take up that much of my time unless I wanted them to. They were just going around, trying to give people as much hope as it was their power to give. Which I think is a noble thing, and definitely no easy task.

We talked for a while about this and that. Actually the gist of our conversation was not unlike one I'd had with Dan a couple of days earlier, when the reports were first coming in about people dying and families being broken up by the flood.

I have to give him credit, I asked him questions and made points that were difficult to answer, but he didn't flinch, just did his best to answer even if it was a bit of a struggle. From what I gathered, one of the main differences between their sect and, say, Protestantism or Catholicism is that they feel that their teachings are closer to the true meaning of the bible than any other. He said, "We don't say something as being true unless there is one or more scriptures to back it up." I didn't say anything, but at that point I was kind've skeptical. The bible is known for being extremely subjective and open to interpretation. If it really was crystal clear, only one possible meaning could be inferred from it, therefore there would only be one religion based on it.

They also don't believe in the immortal soul of the human being. They don't believe there is an afterlife. They believe that when we die, we just... die. And that one day, if we deserve it, after the day of judgement, we will be resurrected.

Was interesting, anyway. They were trying to get me to join a bible study group, but I wasn't about to go that far. I guess it was a mutually beneficial exchange, in the end. Even though he couldn't add another notch to his belt of convertees, I think he felt that he probably got through to me in some way. And I got out of it a sense of hope; even though they weren't doing anything in the practical sense, it was still nice to see some evidence of optimism and kindness, even when things are looking grim.
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(no subject) [Aug. 18th, 2005♥12:12 pm]
Stephy
[Feelin' |contentcontent]

So we went to see the taping of Smackdown! in Toronto at the ACC. We were lucky and someone offered to trade their seats with us and we ended up much closer to the stage in the gold section. :) The first little while was just boring Velocity matches... Dan says it's just a show to get their younger up-and-comers some exposure and used to being on TV. They sure do suck though.

Smackdown was pretty good... it's really different from watching it on TV. Even though we were still relatively far away from the stage, some of the guys still seemed larger than life. And some weren't as big or imposing as you thought they'd be.

Definitely a different mood in the crowd than at a concert, but I guess that's to be expected when you're watching a fight. People cheering for their heroes eventually clash, but no physical fights broke out near us. There was one guy who was like 35-40 down in front of us, had way too much to drink, slurring and yelling about how the LOD were going to win the match. Of course they were! I don't even remember their opponents names. Anonymous henchman number 1 and 2. There is no way they were going to win. Apparently this guy thought it was all real. I knew there were some people out there like that, but I don't see them very often. After seeing this guy, I'm glad.

We're getting ready to head off camping, soon. Going to Long Point on Lake Erie. Our site is going to be right near the beach. I think it's going to be lots of fun. :)
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(no subject) [Aug. 12th, 2005♥01:41 pm]
Stephy
[Feelin' |hungryhungry]

Your brain: 200% interpersonal, 0% visual, 80% verbal, and 120% mathematical!
Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy
doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than
average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing
about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers.




Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious:


  1. Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%.
  2. Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%.
  3. Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.




My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 99% on interpersonal
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You scored higher than 0% on visual
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You scored higher than 58% on verbal
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You scored higher than 57% on mathematical
Link: The 4-Variable IQ Test written by chriscoyne on Ok Cupid
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